Thursday, October 29, 2009
It started out a simple conversation deciding
on what to buy for cherie's birthday present.
Which the celebration will be on this coming saturday.
Looks like you can remember that incident huh.
i could admit it, yes its my fault.
I already said 'sorry la' a couple of times.
I guess that didnt help at all.
There is a big difference between saying
'sorry' and 'sorry la'
one might be sarcastic
one is totally sarcastic
and i chose that as i thought you could take things easy.
So that incident did really sabotage our friendship.
Yes, i know im the fault in the first place.
You asked what happened but i still refused to say.
I really looked like one fucking bitch having
her pms on that night.
Looks like a bad day equals a bad night huh?
Mr.werty. Dont be a fucked up person again.
But am i not happy with you in the first place?
No? I already long forgotten that shit incident
and you bought that up telling the whole world again
what happened on that night.
Do we have to get reminded again?
I dont think there is a need
unless i could learn my mistake from there.
and i did.
Even im not happy with you,
i only could think of that mother,sister joke part.
That is the only fucking part that im pissed with you
at that time.
That was funny, but people have their own limits.
So do i.
But now, it made me flashback what happened.
Bad memories are supposed to be thrown away
instead of embedded into your memory.
First person that i am going to apologise would be gerald.
"im sorry that i said those words directly to you, but you are still
able to forgive this incident and chose not to say in the convo. Thanks."
Next person would be mel.
"Im Sorry too, but you heard like million times from me before."
Last person. _________
"If this small little matter is going screw this friendship,
how are we going to face bigger problems in the future?
Is that what true friends for?
True friends are people who are able to withstand each other's weaknesses and
had gone through countless obstacles that they had with each other.
I know that im fucked-up, stubborn and acted like a pussy,
like im apologising through this pathetic post.
I think we need some time to settle down to cool ourselves out
before we face each other again.
right huh?
Think about it,
isnt that a pity if we threw our years of friendship away down the drain?
I did some of my self-reflection, im not sure you did yours too.
I know this isnt enough,
but im truly sorry.
From the bottom of my heart,
howaiyong.
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